I was knit in the womb of a mother that gave up 3 children for adoption. She raised 12 children, but the children she gave up for adoption received showers of blessings from God. It was actually a miracle that her extreme fear of needles prevented her to opt for abortions which would have swiped me out of existence. But God had a plan…..
I was adopted into a family that loved me like I was their own. All my needs, and most of my wants, were met. From the day I was adopted I knew I was special. Afterall, my parents hand picked me from all the other babies!During my childhood, I can remember lying in bed almost every night asking God to come into my heart just to make sure He was really there. But then the teen years hit and the dark side came out.
I have to admit I was an extremely rebellious teenager, but there was an event that became a turning point in my life. One night I was driving under the influence and flipped a car six times. My passenger was thrown from the car but fortunately escaped with a few minor scrapes and bruises. Had the car flipped one more time I would have lost one or both of my legs. I spent six weeks in traction, six weeks in a cast up to my waist, followed by rehab. I spent much time alone and came to realize my only true friend was Jesus. It was during this time I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt God had spared me for His plan.
Over the years, I have been blessed with immense love from family and friends, but it is my Lord and Savior that has carried me through many storms: I’ve been brought out of a verbally abusive marriage, survived being a single mom, have been blessed with five children, made it through the loss of my dad, as well as getting through the hardships of unemployment……all I can say is….God’s Amazing Grace ~ How Great!!!!!
In May 2001, after turning 36 years old, I finally knew what I wanted to be when I grew up…..a nurse. So the late bloomer returned to school.
After graduating from Nursing School in May 2006, my spirit had been severely bruised, and I felt I was wandering aimlessly through life. During a time that I should have been celebrating, I was bitter and miserable. But thank God, He never gives up on us even when we have given up on ourselves. There came a day, May 2007, I could not stand to sink any further. God gave me an insatiable thirst for Him and His word. From that day forward I began filling myself with only positive things. I began reading books that I felt He was leading me to read, built a website to reach out to others, listened to encouraging music, etc…. My mind, body, and soul received a complete renewal. My new career, nursing, that had become a major source of stress was no longer a burden. I found myself elated with joy basking in the glory of God as I soaked in Him and His Word.
During the renewal, God revealed to me that all the issues of the world that constantly brought tears to my eyes could be wrapped up into one ministry to reach others for Him. I realized my low self-esteem and self-confidence, my lack of hope, were not burdens that plagued only me. Many people, especially women, were feeling the same burdens I was now coming out of. God began opening doors left and right to begin a women’s ministry, which has begun as a website that I trust God will use in a big and mighty way to fulfill His plan for myself and others. I also met a local singer who introduced me to some wonderful people that gave me the courage to pursue my music and begin recording the songs God had written through me during the last 20+ years. Thus, my first CD…. “Come Into His Presence” has come to fruition.
Today, as I spend time in my secret place, in His presence, I feel a stirring deep within my soul. I am His for the making and will go where He leads. I have heard His whisper in my ear and am pressing on with NO more fear. I have found my broken pieces and His amazing grace has made me new. My potter continues to mold me and make me into what He would have me to be. Sometimes, it will be painful, and I won’t understand. But…I know His love, and I know His peace. He will never, ever leave me. He is there for me. I am addicted to His eternal love. Thank you, Lord, for never giving up on me. Keep making me and molding me. I want to see all You make of me!
All proceeds from the sale of this CD is donated to Outreach For Women Resource Center, a non-profit organization for homeless women and children.